Peeping through the window curtains to see if there is a light

 I liken this post to peeping because after my disappearing act from here, i feel like i am starting afresh honestly. With the heavy uncertainty with in me of if i will be able to write anything that makes sense and if i would read it myself.  Now if i may rant a little.. You see, since the year began, i haven't been able to write anything on here. And this isn't because i haven't had what to write because there is always plenty going on but i just wouldn't. The rut was for real. A week ago i met up with a friend who kept asking me about my blog, she is actually one of the people who pushed me to create one, after going around laden with so much on my head. She was on the receiving end of most of it..I love you girl.  I decided what the heck, i could as well off load my luggage here in this bottomless pit . It was becoming too heavy for me and it was just mine, Respect to Jesus who had to take the entire world's burden on his shoulders. Respect!!!!. It felt a big difference afterwards.  To bridge that gap,which i would equate  to cheating because for all the commitments i made to make this blog as active as i could, i am ashamed of me for letting me down. But i  forgive myself at the same time. For now three months, i have been a no show, no single post even even a greeting..Zero. Now I am writing a piece about my recent experiences and i would love it if you came on this journey with me. Brace yourself because it is one long story, but i hope i am able to drive you carefully with me from the start to finish . Time check, it is 12:33 am. No sleep but i gotta force it somehow since it's a few hours to daylight. See you soon...